Confirmation

Instead of asking God all the time before we use the wisdom God gave us to think for ourselves, we should really make good use of the intelligence God planted in us. I've gained confirmation today on my action, as we all know Newton's law for every action there is a reaction. I tested on a reaction and had a confirmation from God to get back on my feet and go forward to a new frontier. Haha, being good can be at a disadvantage because people might use it against me but I've learned to not get exploited.

Got head hunted today by a recruiter for a job as an investment banker at a leading Japanese bank. I've yet to indicate my interest as I wanted to know more detail. I'm not planning to leave my job anytime soon as I'm gaining my grounds here. In the near future I would have to buck up with the studies and be lovable creature in church. Whatever is outstanding in my life unanswered, I shall not bother because I don't care about the outcome now. At least deep down in my heart I know I did my best, I'll leave it to God to do the rest.

Synchronizing

Disagreement happens when an opinion differs from the other. Same goes to a relationship. There are a million ways to pick a fight or quarrel but what it takes to settle things is actually a step back. Ultimately is the loving heart that crave for love and nothing else. As I step into my mid twenties, I've realised that I've gone through so much to get my where I am today with a pretty decent job and wonderful friends who can understand that I need to take time off to church. God sent me an angel lately who motivated me to study harder despite knowing that it is too ambitious for me to take up this finance paper but it is the presence of this person that I'm motivated to move out of my comfort zone and commit my 2 hour a day book worming. Anyway that is not the highlight of this blog post. I'm just day dreaming after office hour preparing myself to study 2 hours before I head home and this image of two person walking and talking to each other hit me and I intepret it as a love message reminding me that I should go after that person by first synchronizing myself and move in accord.

*If you walk and talk with someone, eventually you will synchronize your steps with each other.

Ms. Katy

G: Miss, are you Katy Perry?
B: Why?
G: 'cuz you're my Teenage Dream
B: *sweetest smile*

G-Gabe
B-Bee

Sports night

I've just taken another missed on my regular sports night. This also means that for more than a month I've been missing basketball. I manage to make up for it by sweating it out on some hiking and this week I'm heading for hiking on Saturday again. Hopefully the cough wouldn't stop me from going the distance.

Hopefully by downing this cough mixture I can heal as soon as possible and continue to sing to you my Lord, going to church with a mask on is just too awkward lately and when the music is playing I feel like singing out but the cough just ruined everything lately. Sorry Lord.

Good night

I've not wish everyone Good night for ages. I'm a little sick due to the weather so I'm heading to bed right now. God bless the lovable people and may I get well soon.

Wound

I usually stay online to read on articles and get myself up to date with the happenings around. Most of the time I read on something juicier to keep me awake after a couple of serious articles. Some of the juicy ones I read recently involves affair and of course those idiotic ones. You'll be surprised if you read about affairs. It happens probably more often than you could imagine and they might be your neighbor or worst still your partner. I really pity the other half of these selfish A-holes. A lot of times these victims fall from peak to pit because their world have been turned upside down. Likewise if I were to put myself in their shoe it would be the same however due to the grace of God I've crawled out from a pit before and now I'm pretty numb hence moving on is way easier. Life should definitely be this way because to me if a relationship doesn't work I won't bother giving it a second thought. I've build myself up against this kinda issue and I've also learned that on average out of 10 people more than half will be in one way or another unworthy to be good to. I'm not encouraging anyone to hate these people but I think we should set good examples and send a clear message to people whom cheats. Typically I would ignore them totally because by entertaining these people I felt disgusting. Affair happens in a relationship when one is a total idiot and the other don't realize. I've got involve as a victim role before, nothing much to shout about except maybe my accurate six sense which help me realize before I was a sucker. Another lesson learned through that nasty incident was also my tolerance and sincerity in love. I must say I'm proud of my attitude. Now I'm all good but I seriously don't know if I am healed or I can't feel my wound at all.

"A wound unfelt is a wound unhealed."

Soaring Joy

Last night there was this combine zone cell meeting and I get to meet a lot of new people. However there is one that I'm looking forward to meet. She is a wonderful friend of mine that gave me a hug on Saturday. As most of you would know I've probably been single for too long hence then hug instantly melts my heart. Anyway cut the long story short I got another good bye hug last night. Made me a little too happy for a moment. After coming back to my senses it is just a friendly hug and there is nothing more than that.

On Tuesday night, I've met up with this super handsome friend of mine Nick. I call him the ladies man. He got his grooves and girls would just stick to him like glue. He was showing me his friends on his Iphone and those girls are gorgeous not to mention some of them are rich. We chat over dinner and catch up on things going on. Haha and he had this funny resolution for the year 2011. He wants to stay single this year. Can you imagine people are begging to get attached and his wish is to stay single for a year. See the difference between a ladies men and ordinary folks?

Gaining Trust

I'm recently improving at work, not just by physical hours. With the help from my Country Manager and General Manager I'm improving at work as I get to understand more on the entire work that I'm working on. This also makes me look forward in putting in my first few credit proposals for this year and hopefully with the support I can push through these deals that is worth millions to cushion and expand the loan books of my bank.

While meeting KPIs are important at work, meeting God's KPIs are equally important. I've actually fixed my heart to serve unfortunately I can't serve financially yet as I've great responsibility in sending my younger sister to University in June. I'm placing an all in call with my finances for her studies. I've given consent to her and my entire family that I support her cost of living and tuition fees in Uni, She would be pursuing Traditional Chinese Medicine course. She would be a Sensei upon graduation. I pray that she would do well in her course and not take me as experiment for all the acupuncture training.

As for today, I woke up around 11am, did a couple of hours reading and pondering. Last but not least I've updated my blog.

Hug

A hug is good enough to bring me to cloud 9

Twenty Eleven

When you stepped into this new year did you tell yourself that this will be a year to reach greater heights or did you just let it be as if it is just another day in life? I've been taking some precious time off at the end of the year to ponder on my life till the latest second. I'm still pretty much the same except maybe my faith in God which grew throughout the year as I participated more in various church activities.

I've met different people throughout the year and also learned that one should always guard their heart. I was at one point of time think that I might be venturing into a new relationship infact a long distanced relationship which I myself know it will not work out. It happened so quickly that we planned a trip to a place where we both would have the time to get away from our job and ofcourse fall in love again. It didn't worked out eventually which I sort of foresee when communication between us hit a bumpy road.

This year ofcourse I've a whole long list of things that I wish I could achieve some reachable goals and some not. I hope my relationship with parents would grow stronger and I could be a blessing to them, career advancement, grow to a next level in Christ and to settle down with one lovely soul. Thats about it this year, simple wishes that requires plenty of hard work and faith to achieve. How about yours?

*We all learn how to walk with countless falls. Life is about getting up and walk again and in later stage run. There maybe mistakes and unfortunate events coming to us as if the whole world is against you but overcoming it makes us better and who knows we may be more attractive.

Eve in the presence of the Lord

I've spent my first new years eve in Church. I don't know why... I could have stayed at my friend's place for bbq but there is a calling in my heart. Not for anyone else but the Lord. I do have to admit there is this special rhythm going on in my heart for someone in Church but I do not appear in the Church for the sake of getting noticed. I'm going to church as I've grown deeper and seek different things in life. I've got a journey to go. My career is one of the biggest challenge for me this year. I need to thank a few people, namely Kah Soon for being such a great Church mate, Celine, WaiLeng and others who prayed for me. I'm thankful to have known you people without you people I might not have been who I am today.