The LETTER


Today will be my first time resigning from a job formally. I've drafted out my resignation letter and I felt heavy hearted to kiss my job good bye. Knowing that I will be heading to a better place with new opportunities and greater challenges, I still have great bond here with my bosses. They have been good and understanding. I guess walking in the path of light does make a difference in life. I've been a exceptionally good. I hope this will be an example for other young adults going through career transition or relationship failures or even temptations to just hold on to that childlike faith that everything will be in placed. There is no free lunch, the reward is there for people who walk the extra mile. Plans are only good intentions unless they immediately degenerates to hardwork. You can climb high with politics or even relationships but it takes fundamental strength to keep you there. I know I'll be stamping HSBC's name on my resume soon and this would be a huge bonus and hopefully a better prospect in the future.

-Strongly believes that a good man should never end last because a good man can be sexy in his way, you just have to discover the sexy part of him.-

Medical Check-Up

I headed for a quick medical check up early last Saturday. It was my first complete body check-up. I have to go through various test like a white mice and also blood test. The funny part was when they wanted my pee sample they gave me a mini container and advice me tolet the pee flow for awhile and take the sample pee halfway peeing and make sure I don't take the end of my pee. I really don't know what is the science behind it but I followed and it is very awkward of me performing stunts in the toilet. I've no problem with all the test except probably the part where I have to fast on Friday night. The result of the check-up is out and I'm healthy to pick up a new career. I know this new career path ain't going to be easy but it is worth the try if that is where God wanted me placed, I'll abide.

希望

有些事,我们明知道是错的,也要去坚持,因为不甘心;
有些人,我们明知道是爱的,也要去放弃,因为没结局;
有时候,我们明知道没路了,却还在前行,因为习惯了;
有些事,我们明知道答案会伤到自己的,也要去尝试,因为希望有例


自己掌握自己的人生。。。
爱会自然的出现不需要拼命的寻找。

The beautiful Sunday

Kicked off my Sunday going to church and while I was on my way the text that came in made my day so much better. I can't explain the joy, it was like butterflies in my tummy. Smiling to myself on the way to church. Then sermon for today is all about mission. I do agree with what she told me, it is rather boring and of course it might not be the time for us as we have not been called yet. I do look up on missionaries going all out to make a change. Given so much responsibility on my back I doubt I could really abandoned it all for God. After church I went to Kiwanis Down Syndrome Center to spend some money, it was all from the heart charity which I've never ever though of doing in the past. I guess I never thought that doing good can be joyful, instead I've always had this thought that being good is always less popular/fun. While doing anything sinful the pleasure return are usually way higher than being good. I've made my first step into doing something out of my comfort zone and I'm happy with it, maybe it is due to the company but I would like to believe it is not even though I can't deny the company influenced my decision a lot.

Love (try)angles



Love is not about trying and later discovering it is not the perfect match. It should be the other way round discovering your future partner then get together. Often we misunderstood what is a "perfect match". Perfect match doesn't come with a snap. In reality there isn't such thing as a perfect match. It is hard work, tolerance, loyalty and etc. There is no perfect relationship because in a relationship we learn to adapt and learn to love our soul mate more and more until we leave earth, this is how a relationship is made perfect.

Have you ever get into a messy situation where you're stuck in a love triangle? Love triangle are common nowadays but if you are about my age you just can't be bothered. People at my age would probably want to settle down with their princess or knight in shining armor. You don't have to spend much effort searching because often the best is always around you. If not they would have been taken. Sometimes we look so far that we ignored the pretty things happening around us. Chasing after something that aren't meant to be yours can be somewhat tiring, imagine the joy you had when you've got them and when they leave you with a lame reason it leaves you in the pit for a period of time. Admit it human takes time to heal and when you've healed it makes you smarter/wiser (hopefully). Once bitten twice shy, never let yourself get hurt again.

While it seems like it is all human effort, we often ignored God's work behind us. While we are doing our very best, God is doing the rest. It is only through his grace we have complete work. Understanding love issues ain't hard, it is all like formulae. Build a friendship, start going out, build the chemistry then making your intentions clear....then wait for the green light to further complete the love cycle. It sounds easy like peanuts because we haven't incorporated the human factor. One of the most sophisticated creature God has ever made is women. They say it takes a lifetime to try to understand them. *take note it is only "trying" to understand them. Now that gives us the answer why love is complicated, it is because we have one Sophisticated lady to deal with.

Well after spilling out nonsense for today at lunch, I think I'm just going to relate myself a little. I'm growing to be more mature in life, taking things in a more open manner (still rather conservative as I think it is fundamentally good), learned to let go of the past, learn to pick up responsibility, learn to give willingly. As I grow older my criteria for a lifetime partner sorta change over time. I told my friends that the partner that I seek should be someone who loves me and loves God. This would not only helped me in a way that when I drift away from God there is an anchor there to hold on. Simple? Life is meant to be simple after all. Be happy with what you have but be motivated to get what you want to have, then it will be a bonus in life. Happy loving people.

"Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness" I would marry you, you just don't know that.

Moon or Cake

I've been invited to join passionate and zealous people in town for a mini lantern party and of course also a farewell for one of the sister in the family. Celine is leaving to Singapore and I'm glad that God has planned everything so well that she will be united with her siblings in Singapore. As for the night, I find it pretty comfortable blending in.

Life is full of choices, let us not restrict ourselves. Sometimes our heart may crave for that one person that attracts us, let us not leave it to God's will. If it is meant to be it will be.

17th Birthday


My sister turned 17 last night. It is great to have her in the family although we are 8 years apart, I could still be the annoying brother who constantly disturbs her when she is studying for her SPM. I just want to pray to God to take good care of Jacqueline for me. Bless her abundantly as she is one of your loyal sheep. Happy birthday sis!

The birth of my blog

I shall take you people all the way back to a year ago for a brief introduction of the birth of this BLOG of mine. It was then I had dengue fever and also the end of my 3 years relationship. So the therapy that I seek was to blog about it and it was all private well at least for the first couple of months. So does writing down notes and memories help in the healing process? Sure it does provided you don't dwell in the past. After all men should always respect a lady and it was her choice to kicked me out of the picture.

Now one year later, I've constantly blog and it has become a habit. I think I've totally missed out on a celebration to mark my 1st year anniversary of single hood. I've been cramping up my schedule to ensure that I've got no time to drown myself in any emo state. If my feelings are correct and God has been watching me well since then, I should be on my way and ready for a new love. When I mention new love I mean relationship although some might know me as a workaholic trying to climb the corporate ladder a little quicker (KIASU syndrome).

So about how am I going to fall for someone and at the same time get someone to fall for me is the toughest challenge in the whole wide world. I rather work when I think of these challenges. I sort of just took the chicken exit when it comes to relationship. I do admit I felt infatuated towards somebody but I can't tell if she is going to be "the ONE" so I just brainwash myself to forget about her and just move on until a clearer sign or hints are reveal to me. Note: I'm quite "KAYU" and I can be extremely stupid in front of the person that I have feelings for. I gave myself excuse such as shy and nervous for being silly.

Although I know I'm fully capable of living alone but sometimes the absence of the tender loving care can be quite awful. These days I've been widening my social circle not only because I have an agenda but I've been taking my life more seriously to be someone who has value and to do what I was put here on earth to do. I'm very sure relationship can fly or fizzle when couples are separated by miles, sometimes you don't even need to be separated. My advice would be pray hard and make sure you find the one. When you have lived a quarter century, it is about time you find the someone because a process that leads to marriage and the test that both individuals have to go through take tremendous effort and it can be exhausting. You really don't want to waste much time like me previously spending more than 1000days trying to carve out the ideal future plan and see it fall short.

-I was talking to God the other day in my prayers telling him that my search for the "ONE" has just been narrowed down further since I get know you more. Reason being: God has to pick her and pick me for her, I've to love her and she has to love me, the parents factor... looks like my hope for the "ONE" is quite dim isn't it? I'll just have faith and be good, after all not all christian guys are boring, they can be really sexy too!-

Switch

My mood seems to be related mostly on things I see and experience. They say light travel faster hence often you get influence by things you see first then when you hear them it is likely that it isn't that serious. Which is also why people looks brighter than they are before they start talking. I left late today from work because I wanted to achieve more at work. Now that I'm home I shall spend some time to read and then ponder on my life a little to see whether I've been progressing or am I at a stagnant state. I would like to be credited for my own works but I know behind me God is working hard for me too. You don't need someone to tell you that you are good although certainly it helps motivates you, what is more important is when God puts your name in his list to be invited into the heaven. Praises and compliments are good but it should never be a benchmark or something we eagerly seek for. I am who I am and I know God will send someone whom matches me in time to come.

Lazy weekend



Just felt like I should just take a short nap before I head out for dinner with my family. I think my mind works very hard. I've been thinking too much. Maybe there are just too much conversation on girls and relationship related topics which keeps me wondering whether I'm all good to set myself free on a new journey.

Scent of Bali

I can still smell Bali probably due to the soap I bought back as souvenirs, I try to match the scent with the receiver. I'm sleeping right beside those square cubes everyday.

Woke up early in the morning when the land is still dark. Look out the window and the garden looks wet and misty. Simulated butterfly swim on land before I wash up and said a quick prayer as I was nervous as I need to go on duty as a host. Turn out that due to some technical error I wasn't dressed up as a nerd because they have theme for host. So I look different even with my simple my casual polo tee and jeans. Also it was the ER drill today so after service we have to get ourselves out of the building to avoid being virtually burnt into ashes.

That's all for now.

Destiny

Watch your thoughts ; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

Dreams

As most would know I was down sick last night and being sick has never been better because during my ten hours sleep I dreamt about things that only appears deep down in my heart and mind(which does the imagination). Beauty dreams are always short but the impact of it kept me smiling as I was on my way to work. I understand that one should never ever jump into any hasty decision in life especially relationships. Now this is something good about my dream because it ain't going to happen in reality and I know it. Hence I'm always more outspoken and daring in dreams and last night I was holding her hand.

When something is missing in your life, it usually turns out to be someone. Most people missed out opportunity in life because of various reasons, e.g.: Wrong timing, Too young to commit and many other ridiculous reasons. I don't blame them for not knowing that it is really up to one to keep their commitment level and of course with God's approval. As I was writing this I am talking to a friend of mine who managed to opened up a conversation on her downtimes in life and that lead me to share my downtimes which is already here in this blog since ages ago.

I'm thankful because I've actually being moulded to be tougher through all those devastating days. Without that lady whom I've pampered her for three years I wouldn't have become a better person in life. I dedicated more time to do meaningful tasks. Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.

As much as I would like to think that God planted that dream in my head as a vision or answer to my prayers, deep down I know its the mind because I've been having her image planted in the subconscious mind which probably leads to the sweet dreams of mine. Tonight it is cell night and I'll be leading the prayer for YA in their directions, contributions and lets not forget the heart to hear from you Lord.

Nuttier than nuts

Remember I told you MUAY-THAI at Bali was just the beginning?
I just felt like posting this up because it makes me HAPPY and it makes me heal quicker.



As much unhappy now that I would like to live a happy life and let those ugly past be forgone. A flip to turn around everything, seeing the earth from a total different view which is upside down makes me a new man. Good night earth and Good night Lord.

AHH-CHOOO!

I have been chopping down a lot of trees today due to my runny nose. Its bad that I felt very tired of sneezing. All the more today is an important day because my career opportunities lies in this appointment which I had this afternoon. Manage to have a good short 30 minutes conversation with the department head. Thinking about getting back to work makes me feel weaker. I guess I'm at the wrong job? or plain lack of motivation because it is less rewarding.

Anyway I'll be recovering soon I hope with all the prayers and of course lots and lots of water. I won't be updating my blog so often because nowadays my blog seems to attract spammers and not to mention the work load I have. Today I picked up my phone and drop a text to pretty bee telling her that I didn't manage to take a pic with her alone during the camp. What brings me joy although I know I'm thinking too much but at least she replied there will be more occasions in the future. I'm a happy sneezing angel today!

All in for God


You must be thinking why Gabriel gone cuckoo after missing in action and once back from camp said silly things like God. Well all I can say that this is my personal encounter and my journey with my God. It doesn't matter how one sees me but what matters most is that I need to do good and have the childlike faith to trust that everything will be in place when I submit and commit myself to the one and only HIM.

Library

Library for the party and not for books. This will be my first debut to this happening location. I've retired from all the drinking and partying scene for ages. Now the highlight of the night is the "SHOW" that we've been anticipating. I wonder how does it feel picking up chics in the bar. It must be full of excitement to push some of them to their courage limit and overcoming the barrier to strike up a chat with a total stranger of opposite sex. Well just to calm you guys down that we are not those "hamsup" guys picking up chics for the sake of sleeping with them. In this circle of friends of mine I'm quite sure we are among the best spouse material. All having our own career directions and NO cheaters or heartbreakers. Some of us are going wild tonight because it was a bet and the losers will be the performer for tonight i.e. to get the contacts of some stranger of opposite sex. Some think Poker is bad now the result of Blind Man's Bluff is worst! I'll just sit down and enjoy my beer maybe laugh at those who failed miserably in getting the numbers. Now, party aside locally aside. I'm looking forward to a mega party in Hong Kong which I've already booked the tickets. I'll be partying with some HongKees in Ocean Park. Its thier annual Halloween Party. My life is seriously pumping up my adrenaline and lets hope that it doesn't stop right there. So life still goes on even when you are being left, self worth is important. Will the perfect lover come into the picture anytime soon? I don't know but I know there is this pretty bee in my head buzzing. Fuck!

Me and my cold blooded friend





That's me in Bali. I went to this turtle Island where you could get upclose and personal with different animals. One if it is this snake which is rather heavy. I'm just the way I am and you will always be just the way you are.

3 guys 2 girls and 1 bottomless chips

These fun people decided to hop in Chilis on a Tuesday to catch up after our wonderful trip. It seems like we have known each other very long. They are really nice people, 5 person born in 5 different years sitting together laughing the whole night. We are considering planning another trip as we have the friendship chemistry. I love to have genuine down to earth friends. They are some good example.

Although I'm all good alone but sometimes the absence of a spouse can be lonesome.

My early bed time

It is only slightly past ten and I'm heading to bed. I just wanted to sleep early as I think I might stay longer at work tomorrow. Handling approx 6 credit proposals this month. With the public holidays coming up I might be a little short of days to complete them. Honestly speaking today when I received the YA camp schedule I find it very packed. Its like I'm going back to Uni for classes. I've just lost some interest there and plus other factors which lead me to be less enthusiastic about the trip. Lord you know what I want but do let me realize that above all you are the most important person that I should never miss out. I submit all to you.

-虽然老土了一些,但是情还真的需要缘分-

Bali

MUAY THAI IN BALI!



Day 1 :

After touching down at Denpasar airport. Got a driver and bargained for a fair price to get us to our nest for 3 days. I'm amazed by the place even from the airport to the hotel. We stayed right in the middle of town. To describe it further it is the most happening place in Bali where the clubs were located. Minutes of walk down the street and voila the night clubs packed with foreigners. So after we checked in we took a walk at Kuta beach which was walking distance from our place approx 10mins. Then decided to go further so we hop into a cab running on meter and went to Nusa Dua the best beach ever called Geger Beach. Guys will love this place if you get what I mean. From there we hang around took tons of pictures and enjoyed the serenity there. After that we head to Jimbaran for seafood and sunset. I'll give this an 8 out of a scale of 10. Wonderful place and would definitely bring my future partner here. Saw some Jap chics and sort of check out them while they check us out too maybe because I'm traveling with a guy hence the awkwardness. Then we head to some factory outlet shops for those surf brand and I got myself a not so cheap Quiksilver. Later on its a visit to the streets of clubs and HardRock hotel. First night ended with a painful massage which left me limping back to the hotel. *exaggerate*

House of God

Although I carried all my worries, my shame, my hatred, my pride and everything that could lead me to sin against my believe to church today, I felt better after I step into the house of God. I went early every Sunday for it is a personal affair of me and my dear Lord. I submit my life to him. He helps me in a way that I could have peace. Not that my worries and everything mentioned earlier will be gone and perished but at least I could calm down and think of a solution or a way out. I think sometimes when you seem to have no way to dodge in the real world you seek protection here. That is where I go every Sunday to gain consciousness and to see things in a broader perspective. You are my stronghold Father.

Tons of pictures from Bali

I was just doing some clean up and arrangement on my pictures folder. I noticed I took a lot of pictures in Bali. Although its mainly my friends but I'm glad that I could put their memories into a perfect frame and make them remember the event.

Dignity


Its always good to keep your self worth higher and never to let someone manipulate your weakness. I've had a great dinner outing with MelV & Dong last night. We were talking about how we overcome our nasty past relationship. The only thing we had in common, I'm glad that I'm doing pretty well gaining back some dignity. Like MelV said "If it is meant to be then you don't have to beg for it". I totally like the idea of not begging for love and also I love the juicy idea of not settling for anything less. I'm quite over the past as I think that we should never dwell in sadness drawing all the negative thoughts. After all good guys end last might not be true because I still stand on my perception that there is a demand for good guys and bad boys are generally more attractive physically. I'm not aiming for girls to like me as a bad boy but rather for someone who could settle down and I'm still relatively young in my career so I can take the time to build a solid foundation and think about all the love that I could use to drown my future partner later. Not that I don't think now but I'm patient and do not foresee anything coming up soon. Deep down in the heart of course I had someone which I fall head over heels for but I should be calm and think rationally and I don't want to aim high shoot low and result in disappointment. So if any of you went through some nasty past UGLY relationship should always remember never give those who take love for granted a second chance. If it is meant to be it will never be you begging for it. Show some dignity and be worthy and noble.

Time travel

Its September already. Soon I can celebrate my 1st year anniversary blogging and also in memory of my broken relationship. Brr...It's so freaking cold in my office that I need a hug.

I'm back


Its great to be home and after a short nap I'm back at work. Didn't do much shopping. Bought a Quiksilver T-shirt and a Polo-T for myself. Bought back some souvenirs and lotsa pictures in the camera. The trip was great and a little too short to enjoy. Sunburn behind the neck probably due to my ignorance when I was applying sun block. The sound of the giant waves are unforgetable. Thanks to Dong and the rest who made the trip a memorable trip.