Sunshine

I was about to believe in the chances.
I lean forward just to get closed to you.
I notice that you are very into the guy which you already picture the chances of you and him.
I know that a person will never picture them with people they have no feelings for.
I prayed that GOD forgive my sins and look after you always.
I cannot be there for you any longer as the time is ticking by.
I hold on to everything you told me, for i know you once cared.
I believe in miracles but unfortunately miracles didn't just happened.
I wanted us both to prove that forgiving is a mighty act.
I wish you could one day tell me things i want to hear, you read my mind before and you can do it again.
I no longer want to apologise for loving you like I'm insane or a sucker.
I understand now to "Never apologize for your feelings, because when you do, you are apologizing for the truth."

We cried, we laugh we even do silly things like splashed each other when we were together. People around us love to see us do funny things not only deep inside us we were so madly in love but people around us would think so and be entertained too.
We hit each other and we wrestle as if we were fighting in a rink.
The silly jokes i told you that made everyone stoned for a moment.
It won't be happening for a moment. For when you miss these events, you know there is this clown with cell no. 016-611XXXX. Buzz him and he will be there.
We do not remember days, we remember moments. I lost count the times we went out or the date we went out together. All the outings and events, all i can remember that its never disappointing hanging out with people you love around you. Even eating crappy food seems to taste alright.

This advice i hope you implant it somewhere in your brain that you could remember this always. Its easy to believe someone when they’re telling you exactly what you want to hear.

I love you and you know it and I hate the fact that I cant be with you and you hate the fact that I want to be with you but somehow by "best friends" someone got you. Seeing you sailing away from our relationship is like watching you go smaller and smaller which i wish i was on the other side watching you come closer and closer, bigger and bigger even if it gets so closed that it would hit me i wouldn't mind.

你就像我的阳光，少了就很暗，暗了一阵子，好想把我的Sunshine找回来。

Love,
G