An act of hypocrisy

This morning while i was reading the bible in the train, I've shared with her
1Corinthians 7:1-40 & 1Corinthians 10:23
Out of good i was condemned for being a hypocrite as she said i was being selfish.
I denied but after that apologised and accepted the fact that maybe i am selfish.
After all i am human, she said i was selfish in love when i was trying to share the book of love.

Knowing the fact that both of us are of the same religion and it starts to become something like how the muslims act. It bacame two extremes. I might be on the wrong side. From what i know that it became extreme when one believes anything inputted by the cell group fellows. I'm not saying all of them have their own agenda, but i could also see some real christians for eg: Clara.

Its always sad to see how christians crushed other christians just because the former thinks that they are more superior and righteous compare to others who doesn't attend cell group. I understand the importance of it and i onced decided to attend but was not given a chance to. It became so clearly that they are merely speaking the words but never practicing it. Lust is all over the place, using love as an excuse to cover up all the bad deeds.

I can't blame them as for they are one and they protected each other even though it was never right at the 1st place. They never tried to understand that its the character and the attitude that God is trying to cultivate and build through his words and not just us going out to spread the words without us 1st understanding it.
As the old saying again that Christian's are the man of books. It is very true because in history religion was used as a basis for politics. It is use as a guidline to rule one kingdom/nation/territory. It is modified and alot of books were destroyed or eliminated to what we have now our bible. This doesn't mean that it is not true but it has become less accurate because it has been altered to suit in favor of rulers. It was use for self gained in those days. That's why Jesus was in the end being killed by rulers because he showed the people that what they preach was wrong. It is better to actually use the old testament as basis because in the old testament the main focus was on Justice - right or wrong. The new testament which causes most controversy focus on Love.

Now I know some people will definitely disagree for their faith was challenged. No I'm not infact i myself is now put into a situation that my faith was shaken. My faith was shaken not by other religion but from my own. And we are talking about love and justice. It will be great sacrifice if i have to deny God this time. I think God designed good people to go through all the tough times. I know you're going through tough times and you might be facing it alone like me or maybe you have your support from various people.

If you think that I who did not attend cell group ain't as good as people in it, i shall admit it, if it makes you happy. If you think that I'm a hypocrite for what i say. i shall admit it, if it makes you happy. If you think that I do not love you, i shall admit it, if it makes you happy. If you think that I'm don't suit being a christian, I shall do it for you even if it means i have to deny God, I do know the consequences but sometimes sacrifices have to be made.

Please stand up again and look at things in a different way. For things I've done that hurt you badly to create hatred in you. I'm sorry but I would like to say I do not deserve to be called a hypocrite, I gave everything and do love you as before but if your perception doesn't say so. All i can say is I'm sorry.

Just because I didn't love you the way you wanted, doesn't mean I didn't gave in all my effort to love you.