Humble prayer

Dear God, forgive my sins and thank you for holding on to me even when i left you behind. I never know there is a brighter path in life, you brought me friends, true friends. You make me realised the false prophets and the real ones. Father please help me for I am sick, I have faith in you and all i need is you to stretch your healing hands over me. You showed me the way i should live and I'm living it as you taught. I took action and not just listening to your words. My future spouse that you've prepared for me I will take good care of her just like how i always do. I won't let you down. Lead me in this coming year father and make me wiser. Look after my family and friends for they are good people. You will not design a pathway so hard that i can't go through for you know our threshold. I sincerely pray in your name, Amen.

-A summary of my prayer, I've took some time off to say my prayer uninterupted.-

Final Day

Its final day of the year, its final day for Paul before he gets married, its final day for me to claim my milk tea, its final day at work before i go for a short trip. So many final moments this year, happy and unhappy ones. I wonder what will be coming next year, i hope there is more to everything. Its 2010 so drop all ur worries and move on in this new year.

Well this year I won't have so much leaves to spare and hang out with you guys trapped in that cemetery area. Anyway you guys would be graduating soon so maybe I'll see you guys after graduation.

My resolution:
-Go confidently in the direction of my dreams. Live the life I have imagined.
-Better to be hated for what I am, than to be loved for what I'm not.
-Even if the majority agrees on an idiotic idea, it is still an idiotic idea.
-Start by doing what's necessary; then do what's possible; and hopefully the impossible.
-Love more hate less, be helpful and cheerful.
-Learn to say "NO".

My random wise line:
-Money can't buy happiness, but somehow its more comfortable to cry in a BMW than on a bicycle.
-Forgive your enemy, but remember the b@st@rd's name.
-Many people are alive only because its illegal to shoot them.
-Alcohol doesn't solve any problem, but then, neither does milk.

Chocolates is filling up in my fridge, I've listened to the Doc's advice no spicy and oily food last night, so i had MnMs after dinner because its not spicy or oily.

Tips for me from various individuals top picked:
-She is obviously ain't mature enough for marriage yet due to the misuse of. 'Love'.
-I don't think she understand what is love.
-She doesn't like you, If you try to hang on, Eventually you'll be labelled as annoying ex.
-When she said she sorry she cheated on you, you should've dump her, obviously she's lying to satisfy you so you wont bug her abt it anymore.
-Er, those guys did not interfere your relationship. your're just a tool, the real leading actress is her, get it?
-Empty promises. I rolled my eyes whenever a girl promise something esp marriage. If she really intends to be with you, she'll propose not assure(falsely).
-How many people to say this to you only you'll be convinced but hey, SHE NEVER HAD FEELINGS FOR YOU.
-You deserve a better girl.
-Just because she's the only person who obviously fakingly promised to be married to you doesn't mean you have to be obssessed with her.

See friends can be mean at times but they do say things straight to the point. I totally had enough of sorrow in the past few months, its more than enough for the entire decade. Its not all true but from a friend's point of view, i don't blame you people.

D.I.Y. matters, will call it off for the moment because i need to spend more time on my career and investments. Those stuffs are more to impress your potential soul mate which i don't have one now. So its definitely ok to keep them aside for now.

Welcome home Meghan Yap! My contact no. is the same old no. Happy New Year Folks!

Recovering

Being sick is not such a big deal anymore at my age, i remember every single moment of me getting sick from young till now. Parents and friends will always be there when I'm sick. Then i had a girlfriend back then which i have to take care of her when she is sick. Its basically an exchange of favour. This time i got sick and tons of regards came in, I'm honoured to receive the calls and sms-es. I felt better today, not because the sickness is away but they say mind over matters. I felt better because i think i am better.

-All sickness heals faster with love and care-

Moving on with what's up today, an interesting story follow up by my friend in the states which is sort of a tri-party relationship. I always enjoy reading it. Its disappointing but its a journey for kids to go through. I never like the idea of being neutral because it makes you sitting on the fence. So Wenni, deep down i know you stand on Ms. B's side at the same time Mr.A is your housemate. You basically have no choice but to get stuck with being neutral here. Your housemates situation is basically like my story except you put me as Ms.B, put my ex as Mr.A and put my ex's current companion as Ms.C. Isn't it the same?

So i think its no big deal, Ms. B just have to get back on her feet although i took about 3 months so i believe Ms. B can do better in the States. Go out with some friends, ask her not to worry about Mr. A so much because friends in common are not blind so they would make the correct decision on where to stand. Just make sure Ms. B doesn't become like Mr. A because i know there are people whom make dramatic changes after being hurt. I'm happier if there is less one Mr. A than less one Ms. B.

I hope it helps Wenni, I could even analyse and advice when im sick lol probably because the tragic i went through is still fresh lol. Mr. A will regret one day if Ms. C doesn't come close to Ms. B. I must say Mr. A is thinking with the small head instead of the big head. Making hasty decision does spoil a relationship. Imagine years together then they come up with funny reasons like I've lost feelings... Thank God only kids thinks this way if not our parents would never make it till now. My grandparents is married for 60 years, i guess it runs in the family, responsibility, honesty and loyalty are the core values. I'm sure Ms B will be greatful to you when she recovers because you are there to hold her from falling.

-A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge.-

S!ck

Dear readers,

Your humble author of this blog fell sick, so sick that he couldn't recall anything to blog. Please pray for him as he will be travelling in 5 days. Thank you.

Immune-less

Before i start my post, I must not forget to thank Doug and Terrene for hanging out with me at the last couple of hours before the day ends. The shirt you guys got me is very nice.

Well 5 days before my trip despite taking good care of myself probably due to the few consecutive late nights I fell sick. Quickly went to the panel Doc to get my medicine and pray hard that i could recover in time. The docs advice was no oily or spicy food. GOD please save me, i literally have to starve to death.

Lunch @ NYNY Deli

Date: 28th December 2009.


How can you not be happy when you have these people around you celebrating birthday!

Saw that long strip of film? That's my birthday present. The surprised factor 8/10.

This birthday I'm touched *not physically or sexual harassment* they made my day, we talk, we laugh and we eat and these activities kept repeating till we went home. Although they were initially my ex's friends, they are some true friends which I could find nowhere else.

Life would be so bored without them, we were loud and i mean real LOUD when we are together. Everytime they i see them i can't help my self to hit them with my lame jokes, lame jokes so lame that it never fails to put smile on their faces. I know they hate me lol.

The birthday tradition leads us to WKCCT for their milk tea. I must say our *dirty talk session was disgusting but full of laughter. I'm sorry WaiKit, bear with us for that is just the real us. We talk a lot and i hope we don't pollute your mind and Swan's too.

Thanks for coming out even though exams is only weeks away. I wish you guys all the best in whatever you do. Study hard so that after that we could play harder. I'll see if its convenient to go find you guys again. You guys rock.

-Eugene: We should pool again sometime later with PengSang too.-


That is an example of how much fun we had.

Something Hilarious

As usual i drop by FML to check out what's new with people around the world and after i read this i choked cause i was eating my lunch infront of my PC.

"Today, I was driving in the car with my boyfriend and he couldn't keep his hands off me. Nothing to complain about when your boyfriend likes to touch you, right? Except when he keeps smacking your jiggly thighs to watch the ripples and 'tenderize the pork chops'. FML"

Jiggly porky thighs. Lol

Happy Birthday to Me

Venue: Umaiya
Guest: Me,
ChungSiew,
Lauren,
Loong,
RiMae,
Japh,
Jean,
Jun,
JiaYi,
Arthur,
Gan,
DaiGao,
Nick,
LeeKee,
Mckitt,
LuShan,
Quek,
Mao,
FangChin,
David.

An occasion packed fun and laughter with these wonderful people in a small and cozy room and some pricey food. All i can think of is nothing more than just joy and appreciation. I enjoyed the surprise and ate 3/4 of the cake. I also enjoyed the 2nd and 3rd round of food and beverages. What else other than saying thanks to you guys and girls who took the effort just to have a meal with me on a Sunday night. Thanks VernLi for dropping by at Prince.

Thanks Dave for the BMW scale model. I like it alot. Gifts received: Lollies,DVD's and Jersey. All of them are meaningful. Those smses and calls are well appreciated too. There is so much more to come this week. May days ahead be brighter. Birthday wishes is to have true friends around always and an ever growing career path.

It ends at Riverside

The night ended peacefully with smiles and laughter at Riverside@Heritage.

The Voucher

As promise from previous post a sneak peek on my last gift, i would like some sincere opinion on the creativity. Thank you.

50 cents

That is the difference between a single maggi goreng sotong and a double maggi goreng sotong from Steven's. According to my friend, that is how they charge single men on Christmas. I ordered the former and my friend ordered the latter, don't you hate the special treatment i got on Christmas?


From left-Ruffles Cheese & Sour Cream-Ruffles Sour Cream & Onion-Lays Salt & Vinegar-Lays Sour Cream & Onion- Attached picture will be remove soon.

Above is my Christmas treat from Dad just because i said i miss potato chips. Mum asked me what would i like for Christmas i answered nothing, I say as long as my career and life after work is balance I'm happy.

Dilemma whether to go to Genting or attend the Bachelors Party for Paul. I've lost my T-shirt from route 66 New Zealand. Its chosen by this very fashionable friend of mine which is now in New York. After my trip i will start something new on D.I.Y. hopefully i can duplicate my alien for Angel years back and keep a replica for myself. Just in case most of you people who haven't seen an alien soft toy made by me from scratch i shall post a pic sometime later to show you guys.

Has anyone read the news today, apparently a girl in Port Klang is the new hit in town, I want to be a friend of Essasa Sue too. She is making people in Iceland gone wild.

Plans for an IPOD touch will be on hold as apple is expected to launch a cross between laptop and IPOD soon. Mr Kel please put your plans on hold too.

Got my free insurance for a year from Lonpac today, why free? I applied a crappy credit card for the sake of helping my ex's mum and a week later we broke up, FML. I would like to get my AMEX gold hopefully by next year when i terminate my PBB credit card.

Another week till i can enjoy an authentic Thai massage *without happy ending*. I myself could do good mild massage *pain free*, as I can't bare those painful massages. I want to relax in warm Jacuzzi as a reward for a year's hard work.

-signing off-

A friend

I've got a friend who i would like to intro, he is always nice to me, he walks the talk and is so perfect. He is there when I was down helping me to stand again. I constantly disappoint him because when I'm fine I've never called him but when I'm down I called him everyday. He is patient to me and i really appreciate it. Its his birthday today so i would like to take this opportunity to wish him Happy Birthday. His name is Jesus by the way.

I've said this long ago that my religion is my hope for when i've nothing to hold on at least there is hope. Advices from all individuals each of you which you know whom you are, once again thank you. No pain no gain, I've got the pain and now its time to gain. I must say my future partner will be darn lucky because i still do give in 100% even with a lousy past, not that i don't learn my lesson but I think you deserve it.


Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth.
2 Timothy 2:15

Merry Merry Drunken Christmas

Special thanks to Ms. Tracy Chan, Chung Siew's hot aunty whom allowed me as a guess to the small high class Christmas Eve dinner. I enjoyed everything on the table from the "delicious" bread, Roast Lamb, Turkey, Potato Salad, Spaghetti and the Tomato Soup. Thanks for the red wine, beer, white wine and champagne which made me semi drunk last night. Special visit to Ms. Tracy's wardrobe collection full of bags from Gucci, Chanel, LV, Burberry, Hermes, Versace, Bottega Venetta and lots more. Amazed also by the beatiful watch collection with Cartier, Patek etc. An eye opener i must say. May Mr. CCS work harder so that Dr. Lauren's dream may come true.

Ms. Tracy's advice for the night is to say "NO". I'll keep that in mind, if thing really happen I'll learn to say 'NO". Being a "YES" man is equivalent of being a loser. Thanks CCS and Lauren for allowing me to be a bright person. Thanks CCS again for promoting me the whole night.

Brought my Mum and Sis to SIB for the Christmas Musical, it was good but there is room to improve. The day went on with lunch at Tropicana City Mall, took a walk and went home. Made them happy on Christmas and may i make God happy too on this day.

Merry Christmas!

The Lousy Tree

Merry Christmas

Christmas gift suggestions:

To your enemy, forgiveness.
To an opponent, tolerance.
To a friend, your heart.
To a customer, service.
To all, charity.
To every child, a good example.
To yourself, respect.

-To know how much your parents love you, see how much they spent on your Christmas present-

*its a joke, do not treat the italic line seriously.

Women's prayer

Christmas Eve

Have a Merry Christmas Eve and Happy Birthday to Eugene!

-checklist-
i. Haircut
ii. B'day Present & Christmas Present
iii. Paul's Red Packet
iv. BackPack *pending as i might get it cheaper over at Bangkok
v. Dinner & Lunch @ 27th
vi. Dinner & Lunch @ 28th
vii. Party @ Beverly's
viii. Swiss Watch

Confessions

It is Christmas eve, I smiled gently, to see truth and no lies anymore. I saw lies but i see through it and notice that everyone has their reason to lie. I am blessed to know every single detail, an angel stood by me all these while. An angel save me from stepping on the wrong path. An angel gave me enough courage to let go.

With sincere regards i bless YOU and your spouse.

If you light a lantern for another, it will also brighten your own way. Please be confident that the higher your flame of altruistic action burns, the more its light will suffuse your life with happiness. Those who possess an altruistic spirit are the happiest people of all.
-pailing a.k.a LingJie-

Rest @ 55,Bubuk 2

Dear friends i would like to take a rest tonight so please forgive me if i were to FFK any of your outings. Mainly because i want to have a good rest, another thing is to cure my back ache and this pimple on my nose. With that pimple i can't look good in my Khalil Foong glasses. My X'mas and B'day wish is to get a good mild massage so that it could ease the neck and back pain.

"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only those who do the will of my Father who is in heaven."
Matthew 7:21

You see not every Christian gets saved, only those on path gets to enter heaven. I hope this is clear to those who do not understand and stereatype us all Christians as the same. Among us there are lots of rotten ones also, even Satan used to be an angel. As for me, I shall say I'm closer to the path than most do because one requires lots of sacrifice to actually be on the right path.

Live High

Today I went on to SJ4P page to find out that Wenni is not doing well as she is bothered by her friend's messy relationship. Putting myself in her shoe i too will be bothered if i see a close friend of mine being played out. I must say all you can do is pray for your friend. I believe time heals just like how i went through my hard times which you can just go to archive to check it out. Hey its winter with 12inch snow outside, have a wonderful Christmas. There isn't much you can do because your friends just wouldn't accept good advices, well maybe they want to test the water and want to learn the hard way. For guys it will be small head taking over big head as for girls lust over love. I know your in a situation which you are standing on the right side but at the same time you don't want to make enemies. I'm not too sure about this situation maybe you can ask my ex's cousin for advices LOL. For she was in that kind of situation before. Just make sure you friend is safe and encourage her to stand up again. Its not worth dwelling over a jerk. Easy to say not easy to do, sometimes its not worth being too good. There are tons of better person outside waiting for your friend, its just not the right time.

I too once believe my-ex was everything and it came out to be true she was everything, the moment she left me, i was like lost in an empty space but now im slowly filling the gaps. Life is too short to be sad, if you want to talk you can always send me an email because there is me, kel and doug here. Kel and Doug gave me heaps of support so i believe they could help you too. My solution would be chocolates, throw your friend a bag of MnM's and let her regain her happiness. Thank God ShenYin came back from States in time and got me those MnM's. Please do not ask your friend to read my archive because she might commit suicide after reading more emo stories. Any post from November onwards is ok. I guess thats it for Ms. B and Wenni. Stay strong and pray for He wouldn't want to see good people soaked in tears. Have a wonderful Christmas in your winter wonderland.

Sincerely and Blessings,
Gabriel

Sweet night

Its night out with buddies again, this time its Wings @ Kuchai. Enjoyed the songs sang by Elaine and she is a very sweet looking girl compare to the male singer which sounds horrible. I ordered Oreo Ice Cream to satisfy my sudden urge for something sweet.

Would like to have a good rest tonight in order to stay healthy for my upcoming trip. To my friends may you enjoy your study break and do well in your coming exams.

感激月亮，否定太陽

今天读了一个很有意思的email. 我为了想跟朋友们分享便把故事给抄了过来。

故事：
有個女孩跟媽媽大吵了一架，氣得奪門而出，決定再也不要回到這個討厭的家了！

一整天，她都在外面閒逛，肚子餓得咕嚕咕嚕叫，但偏偏又沒帶零用錢出來，

可又拉不下臉回家吃飯。一直到了晚上，她來到一家麵攤旁， 聞到了陣陣的香味，

真是好想吃一碗，但身上又沒帶錢只能不住的吞口水。

忽然，老闆親切的問 :「小姐，妳要不要吃麵啊 ?」

她不好意思的回答 :「嗯。可是 ……我沒有帶錢 ……」

老闆聽了大笑 :「哈哈，沒關係，今天就算老闆請客吧 !」

女孩簡直不敢相信自己的耳朵，她坐下來。不一會兒，麵來了。

她吃得津津有味，並說 :「老闆，你人真好 !」

老闆說 :「哦 ? 怎麼說 ?」

女孩接著回答 :「對啊！我們素不相識，你卻對我那麼好，

不像我媽，根本不了解我的需要和想法，真氣人 !」

老闆又笑了 :「哈，小姐，我才不過給妳一碗麵而已，妳就這麼感激我，

那麼妳媽媽幫妳煮了二十幾年的飯，妳不是更應該感激她嗎 ?」

被老闆這麼一講，女孩頓時有如大夢初醒，眼淚瞬間奪眶而出 !

顧不得還剩下的半碗麵，立刻飛奔回家。

才到家門前的巷口，就遠遠的看到媽媽，焦急的在門口四處張望。

她的心立刻揪在一起 ! 有一千句、一萬句的對不起想對媽媽說。

還沒來得及開口，只見媽媽已迎了上前 :「唉呦 ! 妳一整天跑去那裡了啊 ?

嚇死我了! 來，進來把手洗一洗，吃晚飯了。」

這天晚上，這個女孩才深刻體會到媽媽對她的愛。

被照顧到無微不至的人反而不會感恩，
因為當白天夠亮，太陽就是多餘的。
太陽一直都在，人就忘了它給的光亮。
當親人一直都在，人就會忘了他們給的溫暖。
一個被照顧到無微不至的人反而不會去感恩，
因為白天已經夠亮了，太陽不是多餘的嗎 ?
其實有了月亮，我們可以發現生活中還有一些額外美好的事物。
但是沒有太陽，我們將暗無天日，無所依循。

每天照顧你的人，你從不覺得有什麼，若是陌生人這樣對你，你就認為他人真好。
你的家人或爱你的人一直付出，你總覺得理所當然，甚至還有得嫌。
一旦外人為你做出類似行為，你就受寵若驚，你就會很感激。

希望这故事能够让我们回顾我们是否也曾经这样让身边的人失望。
其实想了想，我得感激父母对我的疼爱，爱情方面就免谈了因为该做的都做到所以不是我的问题了。
你是否也嫌弃过你身边扮演着太阳角色的人，抽出点时间好好珍惜这些太阳吧，别等到太阳灭了。

Solutions

I hope this will help my friends in their life. :)

Work Station

Had a wonderful dinner over at Opal last night with my family and relatives. Christmas is getting nearer and I'm all excited. I spend only about 15 minutes on David's 1TB WD HDD because its just too hard to make a decision on which movies i wanted because I've only got less than 10Gb to spare on my Mac.

I'm back at my workstation today, its tough pulling that heavy body of yours back to work after quite some time off, I really don't know how am I going to survive next year with all my leave preoccupied with overseas trips. I'm happy to be back at my workstation because I'm hearing Christmas Carol again.

I am so filled with cheese as i had cheese platter last night, on previous days i had cheese baked rice at Lil's and Prince cafe. Both are good except that in Lil's I have to remove the greens.

So Paul's wedding gift is settled. I've tested my DIY skills lately and brought it to a new level. All my DIY stuff is clean and plain now just as i wanted, all i need to do is just insert a note or name and its ready to be given away.

Got to go catch up with some work, signing off.

Back on track

So let me sort out what happen lately, first it was Thanksgiving Luncheon on Sat which lasted till around 5pm. I woke up early to get the sandwiches done with my mum, without her many would miss the opportunity to get a taste on those tasty sandwiches. Went early to prepare because emceeing is just ain't easy. Enjoy all the company and new friends, food is great thanks for the contribution from all whom took part. The card making session with the guess is more than fun, appreciate all the compliments i wish i could show you guys my creativity side more the next time. After that church at 5pm then home, went to little tree till midnight, we eat and watch soccer with disappointed results. Sudden urge to catch a show made us head to Loong's place for a show which we all slept halfway through the show.

This must be the effect after going out the whole day on Friday, game, lunch, movie, crashing at David's in the middle of the night to wake him up and drag him out. Sunday was a scheduled day we all had our plans in mind, after waking up at Loong's we played guitar for awhile and time to go according to plan, had a wonderful lunch which CS intro us to and we went shopping in One-U, So what can 4 guys do in One-U, all we had in mind follow the plan, two attached and two single guys, I've just joined the NGFC (No Girl Friend Club) headed by the permanent president David. So each of us bought what we need and we proceed to our plans. Lets leave the plan as plan and i shall update my blog when the plan is revealed.

I hope I've done great support and provide great advices. I've received a random message from a friend accusing me for spreading some negative news of him. Couldn't be bothered because I'm so tired of these people, why bother worrying if you didn't do anything bad and why bother what others say, i just think maybe you should calm down and think why the hell would i care talking about you in the first place unless your like Warren Buffet. I just hate gossiping and spreading rumours. People who knows me know i definitely won't do any of this bull crap.

Monday which is today, I'm on leave spending my time with my family and will be meeting grand mama and papa for dinner. Thank you Lord for taking care of grand mama with the eye surgery she now has better eye sight than me, medical improvements is really some superb achievement man has made but thank you father again for making it a smooth surgery for grand mama.

-change in style for it is time to uplift myself and smile at my past, move on!-

方炯鑌-遺憾

「莫非要你嘗盡了苦悲 才懂真情可貴」 ，有很多人都只會看見眼前想要的，卻無心傷害了在一旁位他默默付 出的人。雖然放手，多少會有遺憾，可是傷害別人而無法挽回的那種 傷痛，才會造成更大的遺憾。虽然事情都已过了数个月但仍然会有些回忆，并不是我不要继续往前而是我有点失望和遗憾，遺憾的是我不能每天每夜陪在妳身旁。分手的理由我的听了很多遍很多个版本其实我知道就是你变了所以要分手且要离开，而不是你所说的寻找自己，因为要是真的是为了寻找自己那会那么快就喜欢上另一位男生。 不过写了这篇不是要说你或谁的不好。纯粹是那份灵感让我情不自禁的要写。你已選擇放棄了 但別輕易的遺忘。帶著祝福的心情 我想那男孩也會覺得開心的。



听了特别有感触，不知你们会不会和我一样感受到歌里想表达的情景。
可能亲身体验所以很能了解那歌词后面的故事。
好好欣赏这首歌吧！

-If the path be beautiful, let us not ask where it leads.-

-还没机会再次见到你，请问最近你去了哪儿？-

God's First Draft

Funny ain't it? Its true that all things should be summarize as how the picture shows. Be nice and do nothing bad.

-Do not let your hearts be troubled, Trust in God; Trust also in me- John 14:1

Night Owl

Tonight will be a good good night, firstly it will be the long awaited duck egg char kuey teow at OUG night market with Loong, DaiGao and CCS. Pending plans will be LAN party at CCS's nest then Lil tree for a honey milk.

Congrats to Mckitt because i finally get to see your new honey on FB and she has a look of 10/10. Once again blessings to you couple.

-Lunch time-

Believe

Throughout my life i was make to believe certain things, i understand that only through hope and faith a person would move forward. I must say it is better to update you guys why the hell do i bother giving away my D.I.Y. I & II to her. The explanation is simple, i willingly give + there is some conspiracy in the process in making me believe there is hope. I started D.I.Y. both about months back. I remember she was telling me things like she will be single but at the same time she is having an underground relationship, she also did tell me not to let anyone know I'm trying to get her back, i asked why she gave me a reason which i believe you guys could use some imagination to find that answer. A lot of things said but every time she refused to admit. I totally am ok with it. That doesn't affect my character but only shows that she is merely doing the NATO (no action talk only). Last night i was having lunch with these friends we share in the same circle. I must say i didn't know she is such a deceiver. I know i was a sucker for being fish-ed, i think i should stop being a sucker. Friends asked about Christianity and was wondering why there is so much difference between two individuals. Its simple because some walk the talk and some don't. I pity those who don't because they couldn't control their emotions, mind over matters is a better phrase. Some flirt and use people around them all the way to get what they want. Some are worse, be it guy or girl. Well relationship should be something worth holding on in order to see the final result. Hardly any finish crossing the line because of lust, greed, etc. Two is better than one and one is better than none. I survived all stages so it wouldn't bother me much now as I've done all i could to save the deeply toxic relationship. Now i must say let us enjoy this December. I am so glad that you people stood by me when i was down, if any of you is down let me know and i will be there too. I know you guys are in a difficult situation as both me and her share this circle of friends but at least i know deep down you guys stood here.

-Commit your way to the Lord; Trust in Him, and He will act. Psalm 37:5-

She is special in her own way. I believe life is just the way it is. She might have to go through a lesson to learn. Knowing the right friends could help and wrong ones will lead you further to where you are heading.

X'mas wishlist

Have you prepared your wishlist? Mine is simple. I hereby sincerely awaits your arrival.

BeEarly B'day

Thank you so much for the early birthday celebration last night. My YA group threw me a small party last night, thanks for helping me up when i was so deep in the ditch. You guys are awesome brothers and sisters. Julia x 2, Jasmine, Shieu Yng, Jeremy, Emily, Kah Soon, Alex, Eu Pui, Catherine and others.

I'm more than ready to be the Emcee for the coming thanks giving session. God bless you all and may the weak be healed at this season of thanks giving.

容忍

当爱以成恨，一切随时间带过。
不值得去继续寻找那虚假的回忆。
把时间用在寻找真爱及事业更好。

感谢大家和我分享真相，还好知道的早，不然又被那假面具给骗了。
友谊万岁！

I've found God, I'm a born again Christian

Two prawns were swimming around in the sea
One called Justin and the other called Kristian.
The prawns were constantly being harassed and threatened by sharks that inhabited the area.
Finally one day Justin said to Kristian' I'm fed up with being a prawn I wish I was a shark and then I wouldn't have any worries about being eaten.'
A large mysterious cod appeared and said' Your wish is granted'
Lo and behold Justin turned into a shark.
Horrified Kristian immediately swam away afraid of being eaten by his old mate.
Time passed (as it does) and Justin found life as a shark boring and lonely.
All his old mates simply swam away whenever he came close to them.
Justin didn't realize that his new menacing appearance was the cause of his sad plight.
While swimming alone one day he saw the mysterious cod again and he thought perhaps the mysterious fish could change him back into a prawn.
He approached the cod and begged to be changed back and lo and behold He found himself turned back into a prawn.
With tears of joy in his tiny little eyes Justin swam back to his friends and bought them all a cocktail.
(The punch line does not involve a prawn cocktail - it's much worse).
Looking around the gathering at the reef he realized he couldn't see his old pal.
'Where's Kristian?' he asked.
'He's at home still distraught that his best friend changed sides to the enemy & became a shark' came the reply.
Eager to put things right again and end the mutual pain and torture he set off to Kristian's abode.
As he opened the coral gate memories came flooding back.
He banged on the door and shouted 'It's me Justin, your old friend. Come out and see me again.'
Kristian replied 'No way man you'll eat me. You're now a shark, an enemy I'll not be tricked into being your dinner.'
Justin cried back 'No I'm not. That was the old me. I've changed.'

'I've found Cod. I'm a Prawn again Kristian'

Guess List

1) Chung Siew
2) Lauren
3) Loong
4) Ri-Mae
5) DaiGao
6) Jiayi
7) Mckitt
8) Mckitt's date
9) Myself
10) Jun
11) Wei Ren
12) FC
13) Japh
14) Jean
15) Nick Shahril Lee
16) Eugene
17) Swan
18) WaiKit
19) Yang
20) PS

Thanks to these great friends that would be spending their precious time on a dining table with me on 27th December. Your attendance has been confirmed. As courtesy I've invited my ex-gf which won't be coming. She is busy lately with her date and her church circle of friends.

Forgive me Swanie for walking away from the dining table last night for i felt sick seeing such a scene where a DSLR needs to be delivered for the party. Maybe because a TX-1 cannot beat a D5000, will pass you the vids and pics the next time we meet.

Hopefully i could get my new brick tile project done soon, its the thing i wish to see on my blog. Most probably my new year eve will be occupied with Bachelors Party for Paul.

-a new level of hypocrisy is pretending that nothing happens when everything has happened-

D.I.Y. two

I've done DIY project two and gave it to my ex-gf because this was what i initially planned and i didn't like the idea of not keeping promises and stuffs like that, in other words lies.

I'll upload DIY part one and two altogether in one of my post later on. I'm home finally after celebrating Swanie's birthday. She is such a lucky girl and if i were to give her a ratings on her attitude it would be 8 or 9 out of 10. Matured and sophisticated. Wai Kit her boyfriend is also one nice guy as in real nice guy unlike those "faker" (my ex baller mate). He came back from UK to surprise Swanie. Well all the best to this couple and may god shower them with blessings. Happy birthday and may you two love birds cherish each other and bloom in this relationship.

I was wondering will i be able to meet you in little tree tonight. Anyway i'll just be there.

-signing off-

Good night

Endurance is knowing you won't be appreciated yet willingly give in. Stubborn is when people tells you there is a cockroach in your soup and you continue finishing the soup and shout THERE IS A COCKROACH IN MY SOUP!

I've endured so far and at times being stubborn too. Yesterday was more than just interesting. Life is picking up, It all started with playing "Left 4 Dead 2" with friends and ended up puking at home after that game because i was too dizzy after the game. Grandparents and Uncle from Singapore came down and I made a trip to tropicana to meet up with them and as usual expected certain questions and i handled it well. Uncle David gave me a motivational talk, I'm deeply touched because what he says is true. I will concentrate on my career and leave the love hate relationship on the sideline for a moment. Now people say save the best for last, I managed to leave an impression in little tree and it doesn't matter whether the person is there often but if it does happen I'll make sure I don't sit and watch again. I refused getting the number eventhough i was offered. I think it is best if we could first know each other. Then again let see how it goes.

"Deep down you know it's best for yourself, but you hate the thought of her being with someone else."

Over-rated

Last night's visit to YUEN proves that most Malaysian have bad taste. YUEN steamboat is one of the most highly recommend steamboat shop on blogs. Yesterday's crowd was crazy when we left the place there are still people queuing to dine at that place. First of all all the seafood aren't fresh and the chicken wing where you can see people snatching them taste like what you can get from Jusco. Overall my ratings would be 2/10 for a place like this. The only thing i enjoyed is the mango and peach ice cream.


-I've spent two hours watching you watching me, maybe we were meant to look at each other only-

谁

你是谁？好想走向前问你但可惜可能我有恐惧感也没勇气说出口。
跟你面对面的望了二小时，你可能也觉得我很奇怪为何转回头。
有缘大家在同样地点见面，这次我会试着鼓起勇气跟你握个手。
莫名其妙的做了些傻时但心里却很开心。生活就是少了这个快感。

晚安

My Gadgets + 1

Its been a week old now for the new member in my gadget list. I'm not a gadget fanatic because i can't afford to splurge. This TX1 is my new toy which could match my cell phone. Its Gold or Champagne. A relatively classy and sexy toy to bring along. It takes reasonably good night shots too. I hope with this i could snap some wonderful moments in my upcoming trip. Next aim would be a Swiss Made watch.

-off to bed-

Buffet @ Tenji invitation

Officially would like to invite some close friends to join me for a meal, interesting guest will be appearing for example Mckitt's date. Guess list should be confirmed latest by next week so I can do necessary bookings. Just incase i didn't manage to invite you personally feel free to come as I'm busy and might miss out some important names. Drop me an email or text for more info.

Date: 27th Dec 2009
Time: 6:30pm - 9:00pm

*Special performance: Chung Siew attacking every single guy's nipples.

Humble reminder

As i was having my daily devotional moments, I've managed to feel these versus. Its simply makes me want to share it with you.

-For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline. 2 Timothy 1:7-

-Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. 2 Timothy 2:15-

I believe you are mature enough to think wisely, if not pray harder. I can see changes in you and i hope you see the changes in me too. All i can say is we grew apart but hopefully both on the right track in seeking what we want in life. This is an encouragement for you before Christmas. I hope you get the message.

-A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Proverbs 31:10-

You might not be as good as described but i do treasure you and every moment spent together like rubies, stay healthy and be ready for challenges ahead.

Retreat

So just a recap for myself I'll be away from 04 January to 10 January for a break from this city life. My schedule would be 04-07 Jan at Siem Reap and 07-10 January Bangkok. Well however me and my travel buddy is busy preparing our next trip already. We should be preparing for our current trip but we were too excited with our next trip. I haven't even discuss the trip with my parents but I've booked my tickets.

I'm a little confused with what i want now, I plan to use my savings for travelling at the same time i feel like acquiring a new property both are good but travelling gives me more inspiration and opportunity but a space for myself would be relaxing. Being so confused all i did was just pray that God would give me a hint on what is best.

The Poo Guide

1. The Ghost Poo - The kind of poo where you feel it come out and you know you've done it, but when you wipe, there is nothing on the paper and there is no poo in the toilet. Where did it go?

2. The Clean Poo - The sort of poo which is so smooth and streamlined that it virtually falls out of your bottom. You can see poo in the toilet but there is nothing on the toilet paper.

3. The Hot Tar Poo - The kind of poo where even after 50 wipes you are still getting staining on the paper so you have to put some bog roll between your bum cheeks and in your underwear to prevent skid marks.

4. The Second Thought Poo - Just as you think you've finished your poo and have painstakingly wiped yourself clean and pulled your keks to the knee, you realise there is still some more poo to come out.

5. The Lincoln Log Poo - The kind of poo that is so huge you're afraid that it will not flush down the toilet unless you break it up into little pieces with a stick. This poo only happens when you are at somebody else's house.

6. The Sweetcorn Poo - Self explanatory.

7. The "I Wish I Could Poo" Poo - You really feel as if you need to poo but every time you try, all you manage is a couple of farts.

8. The Side Birth or The Boo-Hoo Poo - This poo hurts so much that you swear it is coming out sideways - your eyes water and you will probably need stitches.

9. The Fishermans Bobber or Floating Poo - You do your poo and flush two times but there are still several golf-ball size pieces floating above the water line.

10. The Sultana Poo - This type of poo is really frustrating. You get yourself prepared for a "Side-Birth, and spend about half an hour sweating it out on the bog, but all you manage in the end is a small plop resembling a sultana.

Haha i hope this is disgusting enough to attract a few more readers, since somebody say i should write something different once in awhile. So what is your poo?

Rat Race

Executives, Associates, Managers are all merely ranks in the rat race. We all work hard to survive and to break out from this society. Money would be the best way to measure your rankings. Money is not everything but it sure does make things alot easier. Now working hard is probably one way to break through, however not all who work hard breaks through. Only with risk comes return. I do understand that not everyone is capable with building an empire with a snap of fingers but with correct attitude, knowledge and endurance your not that far away from breaking through. Always remember to make your money work for you and not let them sit there. Dare to dream big in order to achieve it. Always understand that money is important but not everything make sure you find a balance in life. Don't let your career get over you and miss out all the interesting stuffs in life. Being rich is good but sometimes being rich tends to make your character change. All of us hate to admit that now but at one point when you have the dough you'll show. I don't blame people who likes to show off because everyone loves attention. It annoys you at first but take it as a motivation for you to work harder and not envy or jealous. People that you choose to be with largely affects the person you're going to be. Often the true character shows when someone is pursuing their agenda, whether they are going after money or people, always watch out for predators which their real character becomes obvious when they make their moves. So slowly plan your ways to break out of the rat race.

-As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another. Proverbs 27:17

Life goes on

There is nothing better than the encouragement of a good friend. While i was in my YA group last night, I've received a text from a friend regarding their relationship woes. I'm unable to react towards it until I'm done with my YA meeting. I understand what you people are going through, i really do. I'm glad both of you appreciated the caring move i made. Back to my YA; I was probably the only one that reads and speaks mandarin therefore i was asked to make a visit to Julia's dad as he was sick. This would be a great opportunity for me to start contrubuting, sharing and teaching. Like i said i believe doing good starts within yourself. Coming up next would be charity car wash in FGA, I've agreed to contribute by washing cars for the refugees. Moving on my life was one huge step, I've slowly uplifted myself as I've been surrounded by wonderful friends. I might have to pass tonights drinking session as i would be working tomorrow. I'll try to make an effort to see you guys tonight. Some of you might find me being silly as I was still nice to her, infact too nice. I'm being nice for that only reason to make sure she is in safe hands.

-To speak gratitude is courteous and pleasant, to enact gratitude is generous and noble, but to live gratitude is to touch Heaven.-

The endless sleepless nights has taken its toll on me that i doze off in the LRT today, i couldn't believe that i actually went into deep sleep by just closing my eyes for that extra few seconds. Thanks to a cellphone ring that wake me up a stop before my destinated stop. Thank you Lord.

Top 10 cruel things women do to men

Fox News has compiled a list of top 10 cruel things that women do to men and how they play with the guy's emotions or ego. It is in-fact very true to a certain extent. Even worst cases were seen or experience by me but generally these are the top 10 nasty stuffs guys usually encounter for the worse or worst please refer to my archive.

10. They don't pick up the phone
While men feel good as they manage to take the girls’ phone number, the girls often give them a fake number or don't pick up the call.

9. Use men for free drinks
Some women go out never planning to spend any of their own money on drinks at the bar or club. Instead, they count on their feminine wiles to convince guys to shell out for their libations.
While some of them might begin to get to know him, the cruel and heartless ones will take that drink, flirt a little and move on.

8. Use men as placeholders
If she is a decent person, she'll just get it over with and dump the boy, but if she's cruel, she'll hold on to him for a while until somebody new comes along.
These girls don't like to be alone and without a relationship, so instead of putting you out of your misery and ending it, she'll string you along until she meets someone to replace you.

7. Emotionally manipulate men
Men don't like to see women cry and some cruel women take advantage of the fact and use it to get what they want. A few tears would make men do anything to get it to stop.

6. Use physical violence
While men hitting girls are often termed nasty, some cruel women feel it's perfectly acceptable to hit their boyfriends, as he would never hit her back. This type of woman feels like she can inflict any kind physical pain on him without fear of repercussion.

5. Criticize their men in public
Cruel women criticize and humiliate their men in public places. They often poke fun at her man or even soundly debase him.

4. They don't disclose their relationship status
It’s certainly not the worst thing a woman could do to a man, but it is annoying when she'll already in a relationship and lets you assume that she's available so that she can enjoy the man's flirtation and flattery.

3. They withhold sex
This is a time-tested, and frequently used, cruel thing for women to do to men. For most men, sex is as important as breathing, so withholding it in order to get something she wants or simply to punish her man for his transgressions is a pretty awful thing to do, even if it is effective.

2. They test their men
You're all ready to go for a night out with your friends, when your girlfriend calls and asks you to change your plans to be with her instead.
She doesn't have any particular reason; she just wants to see you.
She knows that you had plans to meet up with the guys, but if you really loved her, you'd come over to her place instead.
If her request comes with an "if you really loved me," then it's a test. If you choose anything other than immediately rushing to her side, you're going to fail. This kind of testing in a relationship is indeed cruel and petty.

1. They flirt to inspire jealousy
Maybe she's feeling underappreciated, maybe you've just had a big fight or maybe she just enjoys the tortured look on your face.
For whatever reason, girls who flirt obviously with other guys in front of their boyfriends are immature and manipulative.

Stress Therapy

I'm not a therapist, but I've promised in my previous post to suggest a solution to cure all these late nights and stress for my friends who are going through tough time be it coursework, exams or just work. Here just follow the instruction as per the picture attached. Let me know if it works.

Return

I'm back after taking some time off this space of mine. Its not that I've run out of inspiration to write but I've been away to rediscover myself. Meeting up with my buddies and ex-housemates did gave me more insight on things which i never thought i would ever have a chance to know. Being able to finish what i wanted was a great accomplishment.

These days when i was away life is filled with all sorts of things, from getting my new camera in PC FAIR to actually being attracted to a Panasonic model. I've bought my new SONY DSC TX1. If i were to get it a year ago i would have ended up buying silver but this time around i bought champagne. It is a classy camera with an extraordinary night mode to take good pics at night.

Spending my time with God every morning when I'm on leave was great not only i get to know him more but in my mind i wish he could know me better too.

Only couple of days away I've received mails and messages asking me what is wrong, Well nothing serious just me taking time off to heal because a friend once said "it is better to give yourself more attention and time, go meet up with your friends because they will definitely understand your situation and trust me they will be on your side".
Surprisingly its true.

Seeing my ex-housemates all working round the clock just to get their work done is seriously stressful reminds me of those days when i was in Uni. Skipping class is fun too but i can see they are really doing it because they are all exhausted from work. So I'm going to give them a piece of advice on my next post in order to help them curb stress.

As for now, I've personally invited her to my birthday dinner and i doubt she is attending but its a courtesy to invite her. I've managed to invite Chong Ee to the Christmas Musical on 25th Dec too. Its going to be an awesome show but if any of you friends would like to check out that event please do inform me A.S.A.P so i could get you the tickets. Its FREE.

离别-Away

突如其来的告别让我很难过，当我平静后我将会来一五一十的告诉大家。

Unfortunately i will be leaving my space for a period of time, I'm sorry for the sudden notice.

Ponder

-Love with all your heart and with fear because any fine day all can perish.-

心语

默默的想，想说出一些心语:-

你的态度而不是你的才智决定了你的水平。

你的行为而不是你的魅力决定了你的美观。

你的界限而不是你的大方决定了你的价值。

+贝

Project "Free Hugs"

A wonderful day and it reminds me of my days in New Zealand. I wish i could go back because I'm actually trying to avoid reality here. Its too wild back here, everything is just so bad here for eg: everyone is rude and uncivilised, everyone cheats one another, everyone is bias accusing one another, everyone spread rumours. If god is watching he should send rain of sulfur and just destroy this town. I tried to fit in but i just can't, all the truths are blanketed that i can no longer differentiate truth or mere lies.

Well back then in New Zealand everyone is so true to each other, yes means yes and no means no. Promises means exactly like what is define in the dictionary where as promises here were generally classified as meant to be broken. Back then when i was in New Zealand i remember seeing people with a signboard saying Free Hugs, I walked towards and gave one before, I reckon i should do it here too because one hug can mean so much, it shows love, care, kindness. Its like the peaceful community there is filled with joy. Here giving Free Hugs means suicide if you do it on the streets because police would be hunting you down, Islamic group will do too for indecent act, your wallet will go missing being either rob or stolen. Well friends i would love a free hug if it is not too costly for you to give me. A hug fits all sizes unlike clothes.

At this time, a hug could probably make me smile and clear of the fog which is blocking my sight. A hug now could warm the my body in this rainy season. A hug would mean that someone cares for me. A hug shows that I'm somebody worth holding in your arms. Give the person you love or care a free hug, fulfill my project free hugs. I'm going home tonight and start with dad, mom, sis and bro when he is back.

-hugs-

Frantic

So easily agitated just because i simply said out the truth. I just have to get used to it being the same old scapegoat to suffer all the bias treatment. Will anyone just be kind enough to drop me a line of encouragement via any form because this is such a suicidal situation. I think i need to go pray so that i won't get distracted like the other day and run into a glass door. Its been ages since i missed my last medical check up on my backbone, the lower section is giving me so much problems lately. Maybe i just need to be positive and be happy to be able to open my eyes everyday to enjoy a new day in life because when I'm in that happy situation no sickness got near me. Sickness only happen when your gloomy, even dengue fever hit me on the day of break up. FML.

Meow

Some time ago i use to have a cat as a pet, me and my ex shared the same pet. Bubuu is his name, it has stripes like a tiger and is way better listener compare to Mal which is the cat we got later on after the missing of Bubuu, I've always suspect that the damn maid stole the cat and i still believe she did.

I still remember the days where Steph hates pet. All of a sudden she had this special feeling for cats when Bubuu walked in our house back when i was in Uni. I encouraged her to keep it as a pet although she was worried that the parents will just ask her to get rid of it. So there i made her first fall for a cat and the cat became part of the family. I've cut out my share of her time for these furball. I like em' but only when my share of her time is more than just furball which got me so furious but those were the past. Mal is the new furball from that house, it seems like kittens just love to walk in lost wondering around our house. She manage to get over Bubuu and start all over again building the relationship with Mal. Mal is so called my son but is now a single parent cat because daddy has been kicked out of the pic and mummy will get him a replacement. I still remember the days where we were wondering whether Mal is a male or female so i turn Mal around and find no willy or any balls so i thought it was a girl, when he grows older only we notice his balls and its too late for him to change his sissy name Mal. I still miss these furballs and I'm planning to sneak in someday just to check out how my son is doing.

To Bubuu i would like to say take care no matter where you are although most likely your dead in heaven telling your friends story like what the picture says.

Wise or Vice

Seeing the shadow instead of the light that your walking towards made me saddened. If only you have that tiny wisdom with you and hold on to what is written in that book you bring to church you would have been rational and avoid all these nonsense.

-All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.
2 Timothy 3:16-17

Lingerie

Real Madrid to launch lingerie line:-

Spanish soccer giants Real Madrid will launch a lingerie line for women next year, sports daily Marca reported on Wednesday.

In addition to the souvenir jerseys, T-shirts, coffee mugs and other items already on offer, supporters of the club will soon be able to buy boxer shorts, slips and bras bearing the club's logo, the newspaper said.

The lingerie will be made by Valencia-based textile company Little Kiss and it will hit store shelves in March, AFP reported.

Wonder how they become the world richest club? No surprises because they would do anything to have their logo printed on.

Thanksgiving

Its all about thanking people that matters. I would like to take this opportunity to invite you people to come to this thanksgiving event on 19th December 12-3pm. I will be the MC of the day and ofcourse lunch will be provided. The agenda is a secret but I'm sure everyone will enjoy that event.

Drop me a message or txt if any of you is interested in joining this event.

蔓延

-买的其中一本书-

读书能让我暂时忘了自己。去了书展一口气买了三本书。两本是自己爱读的关于经济，生意及投资。另一本就很特别是一本烹饪料理的书，买的书全都是Hard Cover因为这样比较有收藏价值。 一般本地人都不爱书，我也一样但当我在国外念书回来后，我爱上了书本。我从中学习了不少。

可能大家觉得生活没什么意义的人才爱躲在家里做个书呆子。我不是我只是不把我的时间拿去伤害别人。当你经过一段像我这样的生活和感情你可能才能了解那无奈感。我觉得爱在现实里是很虚的。喜欢就好了不要乱用爱，爱其实是一种责任，喜欢却不需要，喜欢只是那种亲密的感觉。当你说你爱她或他时，你却只是闹着玩玩而已可能世界上已经少了一个好人，是被带坏的，所谓学好三年，学坏三天。

因为一直以来都坦白的说出心里的话，也就这样坦然接受了那难过，那悲剧。我将朋友的部落格给连上了，希望这样能让我们彼此更方便的去保持联络。拍手*拍手*哎哟！

来个招牌动作开心一下。忠心是好但从拾信心更重要。好朋友几位就够，不需要随便找个人来爱，要爱倒不如种棵太阳花细心的照顾它。突然让我想起了老罗还欠我太阳花种子。明晚有惊喜给大家，我将会带个新朋友去吃火锅，纯粹是朋友所以别把她给吓坏好不好。

Hooray

Finally a glimpse of hope in my career. I've been treating and cooperating with the internal auditor who came on Monday. She is a friendly person but work is still work. We talked alot today as she will be leaving later to Labuan to audit on our office there. She insisted to buy me lunch which i kindly decline because i didn't want her to expect anything in return. She offered me a favour if i were to look for a job in Singapore. She asked if i were interested in Risk Management Department in Singapore. I'm more than happy to hear that but i didn't wanted to sound that I can't wait to leave this place so i gladly took her email address and if i need any help she would be more than helpful to do me a favor.

I believe this is what we usually get when we do treat people well, it is call appreciation. It can be in different ways. I understand that there are boundaries for friendship but if one can exceed the limit others can do so. I don't expect return for things i do because i know if i do expect return i might be crushed if i don't get any. We always look for extra perks in life. Everyone is trying to get extra advantages over the others. I myself once fight for a reason but not now because i've found my reason, its a fight or flight situation. Sometimes i choose flight because I'm not in a position to fight.

Thanks Hoong May for your appreciation. I'm glad to have known you, have a safe journey to Labuan then back to Singapore.

Tak Nak

Dear Dai Gao,

Smoking is bad for health and we all know it, although your resolution says you'll stop by 2010 but i reckon you should stop now because you suck at quiting that i doubt you can quit by 2010. This is a speicial message for you.



Learn to say Tak Nak. Do not go back like how everyone did. Happy quiting Mr. Dai.

Simplicity

Everything in this world should be made simple, i enjoy life being simple and worry free. To achieve this state it is simple, love the person you love, avoid lying to gain trust, make time for things you want to do. When you live a sincere life everything seems to be in their simplest form. For example: Don't lie and no one will have doubts in you and you don't have to worry about covering your lies or even feel guilty. Drive carefully and maintain your car and you don't have to worry about car breaking down or getting involve in accident. My life was previously like nuclear science, complicated but usually i keep it to myself but now its getting simple and became minimal. I sing when i need to, i shout wherever i want to.

To be honest it is not a theory it is just an example, different people might have different approach, some might like complicated lifestyle, some enjoy living with all the excessive baggages. Some turn to religious group for help. I believe living a simple righteous life is just good enough. It is just like God had granted me a special ticket to heaven with no terms and condition, the feeling of security is what lacks in most people. I never once give my love ones any doubt on security. I always make them feel secured but it takes two to make things work. Going through this experience is tough but it is probably a good way to make others see me as an example for giving in unconditionally. No where near god but it is so far the best in life albeit the decision isn't the wisest.

Packing my bags and preparing a life with new adventure. Curiousity kills a cat, it could kill a human too. Try new things but within boundaries is what we should probably take notice of.

-Signing off-

Answering Request

There are four kinds of sex :

HOUSE SEX - When you are newly married and have sex all over the house in every room.

BEDROOM SEX - After you have been married for a while, you only have sex in the bedroom.

HALL SEX - After you've been married for many, many years you just pass each other in the hall and say "FUCK YOU"

COURTROOM SEX - When your wife and her lawyer fuck you in the divorce court in front of many people for every penny you've got.

This post is specially dedicated to the person who calls me by the name of G-boy, He who mentioned that i need to spice up my life and also my blog. Huatster i did some research on your request and i agree to write something about sex, i don't have steamy stories to share but this is all i can think about sex at this moment. I hope you like this post on sex. Happy morning to all miserable humans.

Vanity meets dignity

It is all the pride that makes a person sin. Pride itself is what makes people distance from one another. It was beneath someones dignity to actually lie and cheat as a result misunderstanding occurs. Going round and round the circle would not solve things. If it is the pride you choose to be and pretending that the world is so perfect with the person involved, what more can God do when hasty decisions were made. I must stand firm this time, I totally understand when this kinda situation happens. When one another doesn't put down their pride and also fake dignity which gives wrong impression a problem will never end. I had sincerely apologise if i had step on any tails. Anger and rage should not take over at this time. If there is no choice but to make a sacrifice that could put smile on that face, I'm more than willing. After all it is how this world goes round. Some people get what they want, some don't. Some would be irrational to release their rage just for the sake of the doing it to impress. I shall not blame other for they are bias, it can be directly compared to this national problem we are facing here in Malaysia. When there is no fair play, the one being on advantage would abuse it and the one being on disadvantage would just walk away and migrate. 300000 people (*mainly chinese) migrated this year and it is predicted that the trend will last until the left overs are either not qualify to migrate or could not afford to migrate. The govt never once look into it and appreciate or realised that the contributors or those who really care is right there. Just like how i was situated in a situation where the person who care most would first be treated as a threat and be eliminated.

-"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him."
James 1:12

-"The LORD is for me; I will not fear; What can man do to me?"
Psalm 118:6

-"Their sins and lawless acts I will remember no more."
Hebrews 10:17

-"Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love."
Ephesians 4:2

I hate to do this but seeing on the progress of my life, it is a worthwhile sacrifice in exchange for joy in others. Time will heal and God has his plans. It is unexpected that things just happens around us. It might be a sign for people to be awaken and notice the little things arounds us, some was awake but due to slant and prejudice the real value behind all things were all blanket and could not be seen. I humbly stand still to guide and to lend that helping hand.

-"Do to others as you would have them do to you."
Luke 6:31

Caught with pants down

Can anyone imagine the feeling of being caught with your pants down. This is definitely not for the weak souls. What is worst than being treated like dust. I'm supposed to be extremely prepared and excited about this month where i could make changes in life. Due to some unforeseen circumstances in the first day of the month i was force to stop for a moment. I believe i would be able to stay up all night and talk about it again with my comrade. Every unhappy moment just felt like forever and the moment you are happy it ends so quickly that you wish for the next event to be happy again. I must say sorry to those whom i hurt but more importantly i wish to let them know listen to the one which encourages you not just momentarily but every time even after you've let them down. The sincere one will always provide you the way. Just like how Jesus died on the cross for us because he rather be accused in order to save us. I hope it is clear enough as a parable.

With love, good night.

Attacked

Its war against me and the sleep bug which attacked me moment ago. I need a ice chilled coke so badly now. Birthday is near and i notice birthday wishes never come true so this time i will just skip the candle part because there is no point wishing for the same thing every year and it doesn't come true.

I'm so undecisive on where to eat with my friends on my birthday. I just hope someone would give me some suggestions. All i did to my DIY project today was to add a staple to it. I'm stucked at this final part which could be done in various way. I'm afraid to explore the outcome as i have limited resources.

I could just imagine this DIY project as a gift, the smiles and happiness will definitely be on their faces if they were to receive such special gift. Its just such a meaningful season to do all the meaningful stuffs i could ever think of. Different people are equipped with different interest, some could spend hours on Gundam, some spend their whole salary on a LV bag, as for me i spend my entire time working on things that means alot to me. I love shopping too but since there are too many pretty things in the world i should put my priority on the Loft space i wanted and dream of for ages.

I'm a person with minimal characteristic. I don't know what character will i end up if i were to do a test. I'm eager to find out but I'm afraid i might be disappointed by the results because it might not be the positive character i wanted to be. If i were to have attributes on all and balance i would be so close to God. I just hope one day when I'm prepared i could look back at my life and have a good laugh at it.

短言

昨晚在等待火车的到来听见一位阿姨在电话说：“不要说你会爱我一生一世，只要你每天爱我比昨天多一点就够了。”或许是跟老公说吧。 很有意思的一句话，也没想到阿姨那么乐观看待人生。 今天自己穿上了新鞋准备走上新的路程。

收到这位像姐姐般对我的朋友的留言在面书心情很是开怀，希望在狮城的您过的好。接下来在英国旅行也顺顺利利。

Facts of Life

The Facts of Life :-

This is the story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody: There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry about that, because it was Everybody's job. Everybody thought that Anybody could do it, but Nobody realised that Everybody wouldn't do it. It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody, when Nobody did what Anybody could of done.

My Sweet Lord

Dear God, thank you for giving me courage to go through my life for the past three months. Life is indeed on a new track. You never fail to take me home to where i belong. I remember when i was a sinner at young age leaving church you brought me home and gave me something to do, something to work on. You gave me responsibility to serve and contribute my talents. I was with you for that 2 years until i left you again my Lord. Forgive the times which I've left you and now I'm back. You removed my loved ones to bring me back to you. You know it all since the begining. You gave me a hard path despite my daily prayers. I've did my best and I now hand the rest to You. Almighty God, I'm glad that I'm back right where you wanted me to be. The years when i was away, i've learned to forgive, learned to love, learned to confess, learned to act as an example. All these were learned through the person you sent to me and also the person you removed from my life. I know that I might have emotional ties once in a while but Lord let me follow Your plan as You wanted it. My sincere prayer to you daily is of respect and loyalty. I know that I don't need to ask for alot of things for you know what I need and what I need not. Take away worries in me and let me help others too.

May God you bless my family regardless of where they are. Shelter them when they are in need. Bring Daddy home to your house too. I've been away as long as Daddy is. He is a great father just like you he loves the family and have been working hard to bring us up to where we stand now. With faith and love i pray in Jesus name, Amen.

-But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.
Jeremiah 17:7

-For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future
Jeremiah 29:11

-Do you know that in all race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such way as to get the prize.
1 Corinthians 9:24

-But the fruit of spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness and FAITHFULNESS.
Galatians 5:22

-Let us be weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
Galatians 6:9

-In your relationship with one another, have the same attitude of mind Christ Jesus had.
Philippians 4:13

Leaving November behind

November is a month to remember, a lot of people celebrated their birthday this month and of course to me its a month which i entered a relationship which ended lately and our supposingly 3rd year anniversary had just passed last Saturday. I enjoyed my end of November alot because it is packed with excitement. Although i know alot of lies still circulates around me but I'm getting used to it and i just didn't want to bother telling those people off because i just want to be me. I want to be a person that would be at the end because at the end i could see what is happening in front and if someone falls behind I'll be at the back to bring them up again.

-That best portion of a good man's life, his little, nameless, unremembered acts of kindness and of love.

The weather in general is making alot of people sick lately, i would like to wish them get well soon, have faith and God shall heal you. I'm looking forward to December the festive mood is filling me up but i must say Christmas is not a festival because there is a meaning behind it. Christ was not born on Christmas but it is a day for us to recall or know the meaning of Christmas. Other than presents and party what is more important would be you yourself spending the precious time with your love ones or someone you care.

My sis and mum will be going for Church out reach and i hope they will have a safe journey and great health. I didn't put on my new shoe today to work because i just thought that since it will be December tomorrow i shall wear it on the first of December. My time with God has become more often and i cherish the time with Him. Time passes so quickly that when i try to look back its been 3 months since i was left alone. It did bothered me for some time because i was not use to the life without a someone to share the end of my day, my complaints, my jokes, my thoughts,etc. Now I've learn to get back on my feet just like how i did it ages ago.

Its a gift that my parents are still healthy. My recent chat with friends had let me noticed that my parents are aging and they never onced complained about how hard they work to put that delicious meal infront of me. I just felt like telling them how much i love them and by just telling i still find it too small of appreciation compare to what they constantly gave me. I should take some action to return the favor. 2009 is coming to an end soon and 2010 is just around the corner. Have you done your resolutions? Don't just put it in papers but start moving and making things happen.

-The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.

24

我精神满满的经过二十四小时，从天亮到天黑接着天又亮起来了。
我坚持的做好自己，像个守护着你的守护神。
朋友们的爱护我真的感受到，谢谢你们肯陪我度过本来空挡的星期六。
看着情人买礼物给对方感觉很甜蜜，我也买了圣诞礼物给自己。
除了自己的礼物，还买了以前想买给她的东西放在床边。
凯儿说换着是他也会做完答应过的东西，这样就不会有遗憾。
我的朋友们都对我现在的异性朋友很感兴趣，想知道她长的怎么样。
大家饶了我吧，她是我的朋友罢了，我不是那么快就跳入另一段感情的人。
别把我的朋友给吓坏了。

天亮回家，老爸都醒了，想起父母便再楼下跟他们谈天说为什么我天亮回家，他们也很开心也对我很有信心，他们知道我是个有责任而且是他们不必担心的好孩子。

球赛没踢完，永远都不能知道成绩。 这一句有个内涵，你能了解吗？
我想凯儿一看便知道也会同意吧，我们往各自的方向努力，做最后的战役。

至于我买了些什么，我真的很想跟大家分享但不是现在。 礼物当然要等开礼物的时候才能揭晓。

请继续留意要是想知道那礼物和那本来要送她的礼物到底是什么。
L.R.K.A.U.N.A.P.F
提示：以上的字母能够排成礼物的答案。（没有限制于字的数目）

快乐星期天。 你的早安；我的晚安。

Daily bits

According to plans our day should start at 10:30am but due to some delays we went out about an hour later and all of us were like zombies, most of us slept at 4-5am a day before. All of us took the advice to sleep in intervals of 4 hours, it proves one thing it doesn't really work. Just how interesting was the day, my words might not be accurate in describing my day but i will try my best to because you just have to be a part to know how fun it is. We started crashing over at CCS's place and all of us got hooked on this movie showing on astro. When he is done with his so call shower which is actually his last game of DotA we head straight to Village Park for the long awaited nasi lemak. Then it is gaming till 6:30pm can u imagine when we try to pay at the counter at the internet cafe it was RM12.50 we all laughed, never in my life I've tried to have ten friends camping in the internet cafe the whole day. Then the sky was dark and its basketball. We were praying that it doesn't rain but eventually light drizzling wet the court a little. We carry on till almost eleven and this time is the 1st time we have 14 players attended basketball and a total 16 of us went for our dinner/supper at WKCCT(Wong Kwok Char Chan Teng). We talk all sorta nonsense and were discussing about my birthday plans. Next Thursday night will be steamboat night at Puchong because we were all invited over to the grand opening of a new steamboat restaurant by Jun's Gf's parents. Which means no pasar malam. After tons of chit-chating we decided its about time we make a move to catch up with some sleep.

Thank you lord for giving me this day filled with events so that i could be occupy and not be disturbed by things in my mind. I enjoyed every single moment and thanks for giving such wonderful friends around me.

T.G.I.F

Things might not go according to plan today because i didn't expect a breakfast plan would lead to a whole day plan until basketball ends. Last night i hanged out at the night market to enjoy our asam laksa and headed right for cendol and french toast at Chilli Padi. Thanks to Mr.CCS i had to eat my cendol with extra syrup. When we are done with eating we were discussing about where to hang out the plans varied from to Genting for a drink, clubs, mahjong, pool, guitar session + beer and DotA. Its fun and in the end we ended up with watching movie at CCS's place, followed by mahjong (Magnum ice cream included), then it time for DotA. We crashed a few places until we manage to get 5 comps. It ended around 1-2a.m. My night didn't end there as i went for another round of drinks with my buddy Kel and Lloyd. We talked, we laughed and we learn from each other. I cherish the friendship and i never stop reminding friends around me to avoid doing things that will lead to something bad. Everyone has their secrets and it is good to share it out. We exchange our views on relationships. I literally told them how is it like going through a three years relationship, it is not very long but it is not short either. Alot can be done in three years. I told them maybe she is just not ready and she is willing to try everything in her journey to find a better relationship. Yes i was sad but now i do have bits of emotional ties here and there but i am moving on in certain ways. I gave without hoping anything in return now because if your expecting someone to treat you with a value compare to yours, you might as well be with your own shadow because it does whatever you do. My starry night ends at 4-ish a.m..

Today DIY project will be postponed till tomorrow because it will be brunch, Zara warehouse sale *pending, Gaming, dinner, basketball and finally supper. It is just so interesting and I could feel my sore throat coming anytime soon but if you ask me to sacrifice a little health for these friends it is worth it.

-Dear God please look after me and let me treat my friends well. Bless me with good health so that i could do more good work. Let your love fill me. Let me obey your plans for me. In Your name Jesus, Amen.

Flu

Caught a flu which is making me sneeze in office and freaking all my colleagues out. I felt so sorry for them as there isn't much i could do about my flu. There is not mask left in the office for me to look like a ninja wearing tie walking around with files and papers. To the darn flu germs i must say this.

A helping hand

I've always wanted to do good doing good might not be as fun as all those sinful nature but it has its own value. Visit to Kenosis drug rehab centre next week was cancelled instead it will be replaced by a discussion for upcoming activities. We will be discussing about Harvest week where we will be having thanksgiving. I hope I could bring someone along, someone that i would like to thank and is willing to spend some time to know me and my YA group members. They are really awesome people.

Today was the day i took my 1st step, i don't care how people look at me because i saw this blindman in the trainstation although he could walk well with his walking stick but i went up and gave him a helping hand. He didn't expect that someone would guide him into the train when it arrives and get him a place to seat. He wanted to say thanks but he was so speechless all he did was nod and smile. He couldn't see but i smiled back to him. It caught alot of attention in the train some must be thinking that I'm a wierdo. So be it, if doing good is like a wierdo I'll be a wierdo. The joy of helping even though it is some small task but it gives you the feeling that your kindness is overflowing. That moment of joy still lingers in me even at the peak of my work today.

If you ignore everything that pass by which you could give a helping hand, you definitely missing out alot. Its just something simple and it wouldn't be more than the time you spend dreaming. Now start taking your hands out of your pocket and do good. You get a lot more attention this way compare to playing cool in the train. The joy of helping and being appreciated is more than those sinful moments, it is a different type of joy.

-We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.

Quit

This Saturday's event might fall short for me due to a team mate last minute decision to pull out in order to go for white water rafting. I prayed hard last night for a replacement. I was a little angry last night after knowing that a team member is pulling out a couple of days before the event. I calm my self down quickly because i understand that it is not something you could do everyday for white water rafting. I just hope he'll be safe in his trip as its the monsoon season. I hope the next time he would stick to his decision and at least be a little more responsible. Alot of people call for a quit easily without any guilt, some quit their relationships, some quit their job only to find that their job or current relationship suck because when they quit they were only experiencing all the good teaser. Its just like the best part of a movie is always their trailers. It is what makes you go watch the movie only to find that all the good parts were shown in the show.

-It is the responsibility of intellectuals to speak the truth and expose lies.

This morning going through my blog and FB i managed to see heaps of updates, one good one would be hinting in public a.k.a public confessing. I believe some people do it so that they could declare publicly that they are going after something or someone. Simply good because with more people like this you could save alot of time trying to know them because their character has already been shown.

Today i shall be nice and forgive Chong Ee for not able to turn up for the race even if it means that our team will not be joining. I can definitely bare with this because not just someone walk away from a competition, people even walk away from a relationship. If i could forgive her i could forgive you.